Yesterday, Tanner went to Hee Haw Farms on a field trip and he really wanted me to go. I just couldn't because Brandon couldn't take the morning off from work. I felt bad, because I really would have liked to have gone with him. I told him that when the bus loaded up and pulled out of the school parking lot, I would be out on the back deck watching and waving at him. When the bus rolled out, there he was in the window, smiling and waving at me(and Gavin) so cute and enthusiastically. He waved all the way around our yard and out of the parking lot. Well, I was glad he was happy, but I was just so emotional about how cute he was and wishing I had gotten it on videotape, etc. First grade has been so much harder for me to let go of him than Kindergarten because of the full day. The first day of Kindergarten, as they filed into their classroom and the teacher shut the door, there he was, the only one who turned around in the window, and was crying. That was a rough day for both of us. At least this time, I was the only one crying. Yes, they do grow fast. Too soon they've grown and then they've flown... :( I realize that someday, he won't want to wave at his Mom out the window-he'll probably be too embarrassed or too cool, so I cherish this time. And at least the image is imprinted in my head and my heart sort of in slow motion when I think of it, even if it isn't on videotape. Looking at Gavin reminds me a lot of taking care of Tanner when he was a baby. We spent lots of time together and he'll always be my baby, forever and ever.
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